I ran a half-marathon a little over a month ago and through my training, found I loved to run outside. Surrounded by nature and your own thoughts, you are able to be away from all distractions and truly have "alone time." I ran the past few days and have decided this will be my time to speak with Josh. Yesterday I told him I was sorry for not reaching out more--as I out of all our siblings could probably relate the most in terms of getting in trouble with my parents. I also told him I was so happy he was able to experience love and a relationship with his beautiful girlfriend. I then asked him to be my protector as I transitioned from the bubble of college to the "real world."
When I run I will converse with Josh. I will share with him what I am thinking and feeling as well as what is going on in my life. I never want to live a life without Josh as an important player.
I have decided to train to run a full marathon in dedication of Josh by the 1-year anniversary of March 18, 2009. My hope is this goal will push me to consistently run and have my time with Josh.
-Josh's sister, Lauren