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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Leave Out All The Rest

Tyler shared a song with me that he said really applies not only to what we are feeling at the loss of our brother, but to what Josh must also be feeling. He told me to read the lyrics while listening to the song. The first time I listened to it, my eyes welled up and tears streamed down my face. I could almost hear my brother singing the words. When I shared it with my sister and my parents, they were equally moved. It's especially appropriate because it's performed by one of the bands my brother and I often listened to. I still remember sitting at the kitchen table with him, replaying one of their songs over and over so that we could memorize the lyrics.

The song is "Leave Out All the Rest" by Linkin Park. It plays in the slideshow below.






Here are the lyrics:




I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

4 comments:

Biggie-Z said...

Josh, we miss you and love you, always.

Tami said...

Gillian

That was such a touching slide show and the song.... Oh my goodness...i dont even have words...
Thank you for posting that
In my prayers everyday
Tami

rarmes said...

Gillian,
Thank you once of again for sharing such a touching song. As I listened to it and listened to the words...it speaks to my heart so powerfully. I see you, your Mom, Bryce and Tami and I sitting there with a million tears flowing as we listened to it on Sunday. There are such deep meaning in these words. The slide show is beautiful!
My heart and prayers are right there with you. Roxanne

sienna said...

I've been listening to that song repeatedly for the last month from today. It speaks to me and I can hear you Joshie. I miss you so much and hope you're in a better place. You are with me always and never leave my mind. I hope you're happy ever after.
Sienna